Hi Gerry, I wish you were here, I want to talk to you whilst snuggling up by the fire having a drink. I have so much to say to you. I miss you every minute and i am so lonely without you. I need your loving arms around me and to feel the strength of your love. I am struggling without you and hope to be with you again soon. There is no pleasure in this life without you and i dont like this existence at all. I try to sit and think of all the happy times we spent together but it is hard to bear some times. Di is doing ok, but she is missing her best friend and master. She is getting more sociable with other dogs again when out on a walk, but it has taken her all this time to want to play with them again. I know she does not feel as confident and safe without you and she finds it hard to trust other dogs. You always had a way with her that encouraged her to make friends. I guess she had taken after me now and has been keeping herself to herself like me. I wish you were here to guide and advise me as there seems to be so many problems to sort out lately. You always took care of everything and it is all new to me. I really dont know how you managed to fit everything in. You were always to busy and shouldered all the work and worry. I guess it was all too much and it caused your health problems. I wish i could turn back the clock and make you take things easier. I have so many regrets. I am soo sorry for all the hurt i caused you and that i did not look after you well enough to spot the problems early enough to save you. Love forever and always. Maggie XxX