Hi Gerry, I wish with all my heart that you were here. I am missing you so much.
I have just come back from a family holiday with the boys and their families. We went to Cardiff and stayed in a Premier Inn. We spent a day in Cardiff Bay and the grandkids had great fun at the fair and then in the Science Centre. We then had a Chinese take away in my room. Then next day we spent in the Cardiff Museum which was amazing. We then went to a restaurant for dinner. On the way home we went to Dewstow Gardens and Grottos. The kids had a ball doing a bear hunt and exploring the caves and grottoes. The only thing that was missing was you. You would have loved it, and we all were agonisingly away of your absence. I hope you are looking down on us and enjoying what you see.
If i could have one wish it would be to have you back again fit and health. We were robbed of our precious retirement together. Something which will haunt me until my dying day. You were magnificent and the love of my life. I wish you we here so that i could show you how much you mean to me. I feel so guilty that you suffered so much and fought so hard. Only to have lost your fight and your life. You really deserved to live a long full and happy life. I also feel guilty and so ashamed that i did not look after you better and get you diagnosed years earlier. I feel responsible for your death. I was very harsh and cruel to you at times and feel this was the trigger for your cancer. I am so sorry for everything. I wish i could turn the clock back. I long to be in your arms again and go on another wonderful holiday. I want our happy times together again. The nights are long and lonely you are not beside me to snuggle up to
Cant wait to be reunited with you, if you still want me.
All my love forever and always, Maggie XxX