Hi Gerry, I am sat thinking of you. I wish with all my heart that you were here. You are missing out on so much life, it breaks my heart that you were so cruelly taken. You deserved a good long life. You have always worked so hard for me and the boys. I wish i could put the clock back and change things. You deserve to be having a luxurious retirement. I hate being here alone. We should be snorkeling in the Maldives, or cruising around the world. I am lost without you and find little pleasure in anything. I certainly hope that you are in a better place and that your world is full of love, joy and happiness. I hope you are free to do as you please. Di is doing ok as are the boys and their families. I send you Reiki healing some nights and i hope you are receiving it will all my love. The red Admiral butterfly comes every afternoon and sits on top of your bar-b-q for hours. He comes every summer and autumn.He flies around, looking in all our windows and exploring the garden. He gets very excited when he sees me and Di and any family member. I thank you for sending him to me I believe it to be you coming home. I look forward to him everyday and I feel your presence. Please come whenever you can. Until we meet again remember I love you with all my heart and soul, cant wait to be together again. All my love forever and always Maggie XxX