Hi Gerry, I love and miss you so very much. I am going crazy with frustration, loneliness and grief. I cannot cope without you much longer. The frustration of life at the moment is so hard to bare.
Covid is raging around the world at a much faster rate now. Most of our country is in total lock-down. Fortunately, not us yet but I fear it will be very soon. I can only see Darren and his family, but not Jamie’s. It is truly heart breaking. You cannot visit friends, family. Just meet up outside in groups of under 6. Shopping is a nightmare. You have to wear a face mask, and sanatise everything.
It is autumn now and the clock change on Saturday. It will be dark around 5pm then. Along with the coldness of the weather and miserable wet days, life is looking bleak. If you were here, we would be having fun with our free time and privacy.
Darren is getting a few gigs now but the money is dismal. He has to take them or starve. Jamie is back at BIMM but they have covid now. He is terrified that he will catch it. He feels it is only a matter of time before he does and then it will be fatal for his family.
Austyn was 9 yesterday, he is quite a young man now. Incredibly like you. He is so confident, bright, clever and fast. He is so comical and talented just like you. We bought him a Dinosaur that he wanted and a book of knowledge and a joke book. He loved them. It is Sienna’s birthday in just over a week and she will be 7. She is a lively, high spirited young lady with lots of talent. She is a constant chatterbox, but lovable with it.
Christmas shopping is difficult, but I have managed to get the grandchildren sorted. We have bought them and electric keyboard per family. I think it is just what they need to further their interest in performing. They all love singing and playing tunes. Our sons agreed it would be ideal gifts for them. I did not want to waste money on plastic toys that they will out- grow any more. So, it is an investment into their futures
Di is alright. She is struggling a bit with her back legs and arthritis. I have ordered her some painkiller pills from the vet to help her through the cold winter months. They cost a fortune, but it might help her. I am very wary as Satch was only a few months older than her went he was put down.
I hope all is well with you in your world. I hope you are happy, loved and having a great time. I hope you are restored to full health and vitality. I also hope that you hear and feel my love and longing for you. I almost wish I could get covid so that I will be with you sooner. Please, continue to visit me. I look for your signs all the time. I still have not seen your butterfly for months. I guess if I ever see it again it will not be until next summer.
Until we meet again, please always remember that I always have and always will love you forever and always. You are still the love of my love and the man of my dreams. You are my hero and I am so proud of you. I am very proud and privileged to have been you wife and lover.
All my love forever and always,
Maggie XxX