Hi Gerry,
I love and miss you so very much.
Its been a very sad traumatic and terrible day today. Di sadly had to be put to sleep around 1.20pm today. She was very weak and frail and had been deteriorating for some while. Her back legs had given way and bless her she struggled of for so very long. She was such a lovely gentle kind loving day.
She collapsed a couple of night ago has not been able to get up or even move. She could not even hole her head up to take a drink of water.
I have sat up with her for a few night now but she did not stir for about 10 hours.
She was to weak to take to the vets and i had arranged for a vet to come in on Friday at 12.30 to put her to sleep. Unfortunately this morning when she awoke she was very distressed and was very vocal about her distress. I decided there and then to make sure she was put out of her misery today. It took several hours to arrange as most vets could not come today. I eventually rang her vet at Shaw Ridge and the came out at 1.15pm today and put her to sleep at around 1.20pm. She did not move , flinch or open her eyes. She was gone in around 30 seconds. She was very peaceful and I know that is what you would have wanted for her. Darren and Jamie were both here to be by my side and to say their goodbyes. It was amazingly expensive at £581 pounds but i know that you would want for her. To be at home in comfort and love. I hope you were here to take her with you so that you could be reunited together again for ever and ever. You loved her so very much and she you. You were inseparable, and she was your shadow. I know yo will be delighted to have her with you again. Recently she had taken to walking over to you ashes , staring at them and then licking the box. She seemed to be wanting you badly.
I feel so lost and lonely now, she was always here for me no matter what, it has been comforting to be met by her on homecoming and in the mornings. She helped me through the bad and dark times especially when you were cruelly snatched away from us. I hope she is with you now and that you can have a fantastic life together. I hope you can go on nice long country walk, play with Satch and meet her namesake my sister Diane.
Its heartbreaking for me but hopefully a good and happy reunion for you and Di.
Please can you let me know if you are together again. Please can yo send me a sign and maybe visit me with Di in my dreams. Thank you also for letting me know when and helping me through this.
I really need you right now. I need you to take me in your loving arms and give me a big hug. I need your love and comfort. I love and miss you so very much.
Until we meet again, and I cant wait to be in your loving arms again.
Please always remember that I always have, and always will love you forever and always.
All my love forever and always
Maggie XxX