Hi Gerry,
I love and miss you so very much. I hope you are in heaven happily with Di. I hope yo fetched her and took her in your arm when she passed away on 22nd February. She was such a brave, loyal, loving obedient and loyal companion to me. She protected me and was always there to comfort me when i am grieving and crying for you. She was like you so very strong,brave and courageous. Please let me know if you are all together again. I would like to think of you both playing having fun and going on lovely walks with Patch, Tuppy and Satch. Please let me know she has met my sister Diane, been reunited with my mum, your mum and has met both mine and your dads.
I hope all is well in your world and your life and that you are extremely happy.
It has been hell for me here. After losing Di , i am struggling with the aftermath of taking our car to the Nissan repair shop. They had the for 33 days. It has been like pulling teeth to get the car fixed. Finally after it costing nearly £2000 i had a call to say it was ready. Only when I collected it i discovered they had cracked the front windscreen and removed the rubber surround. If i had noticed this before paying the bill, i would not have paid it. I informed the garage about this and a man can our saw the crack and went inside to get a camera to take a picture. Unfortunately, a female presumably the service manage came out waiving a vehicle inspection form which showed the crack was there o arrival. I was fuming as it definitely did not have a crack when i left it. After much heated discussion she tried to tell me a load of bullshit to justify her claim, saying it had been there for months. I was so angry i said that we would not argue but i would be putting in a complaint and would see her in court.
I am so angry as i cannot drive the car still as it is illegal to drive with a cracked windscreen. Further more i could get a hefty fine and points on my licence. Also the crack with rapidly spread if the car is driven. I do not see why i should claim on my insurance and pay the excess fee and then have much increased future policies due to the claim.
I rang our garage and asked advice and was given the name of a contact to email my complaint. I did this yesterday but he was on holiday. He returned today so is sent it today. He very quickly replied saying he would look into this. He would speak to the service manager( I think the lady that spoke to me) so i don't hold out any hope. He is also going to speak to Justin who was dealing with me, but he is off sick. He is also going to look at all the paperwork. This will show him the vehicle check report so i dot think i will get any success. There is also builders i the car park and there are cars all around the site with diggers and heavy machinery.
I am truly heartbroken and beside myself with anguish, and frustration. This had been a very hard few months and without a car to go shopping, go to choir, see the family etc it is a total nightmare. I have had to get taxis which are very expensive and buses which are a total nightmare. I am sick of standing for hours in the rain and cold waiting for them. Is there anyway you can engineer this situation to get the windscreen fixed asap at the expense of the garage. I would be truly grateful if you could.
On other news its slightly warmer now and we are finally generating solar energy again. I have tried to do some gardening but i have to do a little at a time as i am not as fit and strong as i once was. My hands are very painful if i do too much. Also i still have the sciatica in my left leg which is very painful at times, especially when in bed and first thing in the morning. Although I have taken to staying in bed until nearly lunchtime every day as i feel i have nothing and no one to get up for.
I hope you came with me to the Wyvern last week to see Isabelle and Genevieve in the Beauty and the Beast pantomime. They were amazing.
Life is incredibly lonely for me now that i am truly alone. I love and need you so very much.
I love it when i see you in my dreams and we have fun and adventures together. Please can we make mad passionate love in my dreams again soon.
Hopefully you will return soon as my beautiful red admiral butterfly. I look forward to seeing you come home and spend time in our the garden of our dreams, that you worked tirelessly for years . I love to see you fly around all excited and circle over our heads you are always so excited to see us and to be home. You make my heart swell with love, pride admiration and longing for you. I know it is definitely you I would recognise your bubbly fun personality anywhere.
I will update you as soon as i get any further developments.
Please always remember that i always have, and always will, love you forever and always.
Until we meet again, and I cant wait to be in your loving arms again.
All my love, forever and always.
Maggie XxX
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