Hi Gerry, its Saturday afternoon 16th March 2019. The weather is lousy, cold, wet and very windy. I am bored senseless. I am lost and lonely without you. I just don't know what to do with my life anymore. I just wish with all my heart that you were here with me. We could be having so much fun together. I miss your smile and your fun personality so very much. We should be on a luxury holiday now, Perhaps in the Maldives, snorkelling in the coral reef. I miss those days so very much.
I have just written about my wonderful surprise 60th birthday party you gave me, in the book I am writing about you and our life together. It reminds me of how loving and thoughtful you always were. The depth of you love for me and the boys knew no bounds, and we will always be grateful to you for all the wonderful things you did for us, and the joy you brought to our lives. the memories are strong and they give me strength, to be reminded of your love.
I also sit and watch the family videos you made. They make me laugh and cry. I sometimes forget what a wonderful life we had together and all the fun we had. It also makes me miss you even more. I cant take my eyes off you when you appear. it's just a shame that you did most of the filming and don't appear as often as the rest of us. But we can hear you voice even if we cant see you. I am so glad that we have them to reminisce and remind me of what a wonderful, fun loving and devoted husband and father you always were.
I am now set for yet another mindless boring night sat in front of the fire watching tv.
I hope you are happy, loved and well. Free to do as you please where and when you please. I hope you still love me and that you will be there to meet me when I come home to you.
All my love forever and always. Maggie XxX