Hi Gerry, missing you like crazy. I am so lost without you. I miss your smiling face and your love. I wish you were here with me still. I love you and ache for you. Life is very empty now and I find it difficult to cope with the everyday mundane empty life.
Darren will make you very proud on Saturday. He is playing in Cardiff arena for the Cricket World Cup. He will be playing in front of an audience of 25,000 people. I hope you are able to watch him and wish him luck. He has 3 more performances doing the same during June. It will also be televised on Sky Sports. It will also be his 42nd birthday on Monday the 3rd June.
I have just had Austyn and Violet for a sleep over. They had a great time watching your videos of Disney World. They loved seeing you. They found seeing their dad and uncle Jamie as young boys amusing. I must admit that I feel very tired and exhausted though, as they are so lively and full of energy.
I am trying my best to keep the garden lovely for you. I hope you can see it, and return soon as my red admiral butterfly.
I still find it difficult to get to sleep at night. I lay awake for hours thinking of you. I never could sleep unless you were laying beside me. I still take your ashes to bed with me every night to try to stay as close as possible to you. I think about all the wonderful times we had together. Snorkelling in the coral reefs in the Maldives. Walking barefoot on the beach. Our romantic candle lit dinners on the beach. Our wonderful holidays together. The romantic Caribbean Cruise, Cuba, Crete, Egypt and all the other many holidays we had together. Our city breaks to Paris, Amsterdam, Venice, Prague and Switzerland. We had lots of other holidays, too many to mention. But I must include our Harmony breaks as they were also wonderful. We had some great times together along with a fabulous family. I also lay there remembering our wonderful sex life, and remember us making love.
I have so much to thank you for, along with all the other treasures you brought to our loves together. You were always the most loving ,romantic, passionate, handsome, sexy , husband, lover, soul mate and best friend in the world. You were strong, brave, courageous, heroic,and noble as well as being so talented in a variety of skills and art forms. You were the best drummer, drum soloist and band leader ever. Wipeout and Shred were phenomenal and world class bands. Your drum solos made you a legend. You entertained, delighted and thrilled hundreds and thousands of people during your lifetime. You taught hundreds of kids a week, who adored you, ad miss you. You also taught dozens of adults who wanted to aspire to you.
You were amazing at diy, and astounded professionals with your expertise and perfectionism. You were a perfectionist in everything you did giving 200% effort in everything you did. Your art is everywhere, Your murals, painting, glass engraving, wood burning and everything you built. You were also an amazing dog whisperer. Patch and Di are testament to that.
As a husband , father and grandfather is where you excelled the most. We are all so very grateful for everything you did for us. All the love, fun, happiness and support you brought to our lives, as well as your generosity and you were always full of fun and surprises.
I write this with love, and a very heavy heart, as I cannot say these things to you and I cant snuggle up in bed with you anymore after making very passionate love.
I hope that wherever you are now you are happy,well and free. Free to do whatever your heart desires, and to go wherever you want. I hope you have lots of friends, family, lover, musicians, drummer and artists to enjoy yourself with. I also hope that you have been re-united with your grandparents, parents, uncle Harry, Peggy and Bart, my parents, Diane, Peg. I hope that you have met Buddy Rich your hero, and can have drum conversations and drum battles with him. I also hope you can have fun playing with the other famous musicians there with you.
Its getting late so I will leave you now, but please always remember. I always have and always will love you and only you.
All my love forever and always, MaggieXxX