HI Gerry,
I am thinking of you and loving and missing you so very much. I am very down at the moment as it is the 11th anniversary of Diane's passing today. It always seems to be someones birthday or anniversary of passing these days.
I don't have much news at the moment as life is so boring and lonely. It is September now and it is beginning to feel very autumnal. The days are getting much shorter and the night so very long and lonely.
I cannot seems to get motivated at the moment. There is still some jobs to do in the garden and lots of decanting of cupboard and wardrobes as usual. I will not be getting rid of any of your clothes and things thou, as It would be so painful, and I like to have your things around me. I guess I still cannot accept that you will never return home again.
Or grandchildren are all back at school now. Even little Genevieve started pre-school today. They are all growing up so very fast.
Darren has nearly finished his new kitchen and will soon be starting on building his new studio in the old kitchen. Jamie is still on his summer break from BIMM.
I have not seen your butterfly for weeks now. I do miss him as I feel so close to you when I see him. We sit and chat for ages. I feel it is confirmation that you are still around and that there is an after life. I guess I am expecting too much from you as usual. It must be very hard for you to visit me, and it must also take a lot our of you. It might also be stopping you from moving on to somewhere better.
Di is ok, but often declines from going our on a walk. I don't know shy, maybe she picks up on my depression.
I hope you are happy, loved, healthy and free now to do anything your heart desire. You deserve the best my darling. You always worked so darn hard, and gave me everything. You were my rock, my love god, and my rock god. I will always treasure the love and life we shared together. You should be here enjoying your retirement now. Going on luxury holiday. Cruising the world, snorkeling in the Maldives, and visiting all the wonderful cities in the world. I wish with all my hear , body and soul, that you were still here today. I hope you are having wonderful new experiences in your new life.
Until we meet again, please always remember that I always have and always will love you forever and always.
All my love forever and always,
Maggie XxX