Hi Gerry, I wanted to tell you that I went on a spa retreat for 2 nights with Darren and Jamie. We all needed a break and some TLC. It was amazing. We all had an aromatherapy body massage on arrival. Darren and I also had a facial and Jamie had a firm body massage. We had a great time. We also had a swim in the pool. It was a lovely old hotel with lots of wood carving, old fireplaces and period charm. The breakfast was good. Help yourself style. However the 3 course evening meal was a joke. The portions were so small you could hardly see them. We had to eat before going to dinner in order to survive. I wish with all my heart that you had been there. I kept imagining what we would have done there. I kept thinking of us having amazing sex. We all thought about you and talked about you all the time. I could not sleep at night as I was so distressed without you.
I took the boys with me as the Help Musicians UK had given me some money for a retreat. I spent months trying to find something I would like. I did not fancy going alone and being with strangers. Eating vegan food and listening to people telling me how to move on with my life without you. So i plumped for some pampering and being with our sons. I find it difficult to function still and miss you so much. Time hangs and my heart is heavy with longing for you. I wish we had gone on a spa break together. You needed more pampering and you deserved the respite. I am so sorry that i let you down and did not spoil you enough. I did not appreciate you as i should have done. I now have the rest of my life to regret all the opportunities I missed to show you how much i love you. I hope you are happy in heaven and I hope you will come for me when it is my time to leave this world. I hope you still love me and want me.
All my love forever and always. Maggie XxX