Hi Gerry, I am missing you so much it hurts. I wish you were here with me. I need you and your love. I am so dizzy that I keep doing stupid things. I need your love support and encouragement to carry on.
I went on a short break with Darren and his family to Warmwell holiday park near Weymouth. We had a lovely time and the weather was good for us. The sun shone and it was quite warm. The kids had a great time swimming and going to the kids shows. One the way home we spent a couple of hours on Weymouth beach. I was thinking of you the whole time. Remembering when we were there together on many occasions. I could see you in the sea with Di, and our romantic times together. Sadly I lost the bangle you gave me as a tree present one Christmas. I don't know when or where I lost it. I only know I was not wearing it after we left the site. We did go back and ask for the room to be searched but alas it was not found. It must have come off when I took off my cardigan which I was doing frequently. I broke my heart when I got home. I hate losing anything you gave me as I treasure it all.
Carol and Rick looked after Di for me. She loves going there as Carol spoils her. She likes the old house with all is smells.
I spent today gardening again. I am trying hard to keep the garden as you would like it. I know its not a patch on how you kept it but I am doing my best. Recently Darren helped me to dig out all the huge grasses which were taking over the border and the pampas grass which was becoming high maintenance to control. In its place Jamie helped me to plant a purple rhododendron in memory of my Mum. I do hope you are able to meet her and get the chance to catch up on all the news of the family. I have panted lots of roses and clematis on the left border in your memory since you have gone.
Life is realy lonely and quite a chore. There is so little to look forward to. I love it when you come to me in my sleep. You came up behind me when I was looking in the mirror put your arms around me and gave me a big hug the other night. I was amazing and it felt so real. I always go to bed hoping to be with you in my dreams. I still take you to bed with me every night and I always take you with me when I am away form home. You came to Warmwell and Weymough with me.
I am looking forward to seeing my butterfly soon.
Until I see you again be happy and always remember I will always love you and you are in my heart and thoughts all the time.
All my love forever and always, Maggie XxX