Hi Gerry,
I am missing you so much. Its the first day of Autumn and the evenings are drawing in. Its pitch black before 8 pm. I am so very sad and lonely without you. I am still trying to engage in a few hobbies to pass the time. Last night I had a taster session with the Swindon Rock Choir. I was very nervous and scared especially as it was at the Covingham Park Primary School, where you taught on a regular basis. I felt very strange there knowing that you used to be there on a regular basis. I still look for you everywhere. It was packed with about 100 regulars members and about 10 new recruits. I am not sure whether I will continue or not but I will sign up and give it a go.
Today I went to my creative writing group. I feel very inferior there too, but I keep going in the hopes that it will help me in writing my book about your life and our life together. I want to finish it and leave it for our grandchildren and future generations to read and get to know how wonderful you were.
We are all missing you so much and are so very devastated that you never got the opportunity to enjoy your grandchildren. They are missing out on so much,as you were such a wonderful person and would have been ecstatic playing and entertaining them all.
There is a problem with our little pond. It appears to have a leak and I have to let it drain out before I can clean it out and put in a liner. Jamie helped me to get the plants out but I am still struggling to catch the fish to transfer into the large pond.
I am dreading the winter months and the loneliness. Di is well and looking after me. She had become much more affectionate lately.
I am sat watching Doc Martin. We used to love watching that together. Reminiscing about the times we went there. We had such wonderful holidays and such fun.
I wish with all my heart, body and soul that you were here. It gets harder everyday to struggle on without you. I hope that you are ok, and that heaven it truly wonderful . I hope that you have been reunited with everyone that you wish to be with. I hope that you are flying free, and that you can go anywhere, and do anything that your heart desires.
Please remember that it was an honour and a privileged to be your wife. I loved every minute with you. I have so much to thank you for and now I will never get the chance. I wish with all my hear that I had treated you better and that I had been a much kinder, loving, generous and understanding wife to you.
Please remember that I always have, and always will love you.
All my love forever and always. Maggie XxX