Hi Gerry, I am missing you and loving you like crazy. I am so lost, and lonely without you, I just don't know what to do with myself.
Darren and I have cleared the loft. We have had a good sort out. I cannot imagine why I kept so much junk. it is cleaned and the middle of the floor is now empty and the futon is cleared. It looks like it did before we had the extension now. I keep thinking of us making love there on our love swing. That was truly spectacular, and true ecstasy.
We did a tip run, but the new front bedroom is still stacked high with items to go to the charity shop. Unfortunately, they are not open for taking in goods yet, so it will have to stay for a while longer.
We are still in lock-down and things are getting much worse now. There are millions of people being put out of work and we are in the worst recession in recorded history. Life is not how you knew it now. Everything is so expensive in you can get hold of things at all. Stupid, selfish people are holidaying abroad spreading the disease world wide again. Also thousand of migrants are crossing the channel and landing in Kent every day. This again is spreading the disease and putting yet more pressure on our country. I don't know where it will all end up but I know it is not going to be good.
I see Jamie occasionally but have not seen his family since Jamie's birthday on the 3rd march. Darren and his family have included me in their family bubble so I see them quite regularly. They have taken me out for a couple of day trips. Once to the Cotswold water and beach park and then to the Cotswold wildlife park. Both days were extremely enjoyable and very welcome. I am having Austyn, and Violet for three days next week as Darren and Kelly are going away for a romantic break. Oh how I miss our romantic holidays.
Jamie and his family went away last week to a farm in Tenby. They had a fantastic time and the weather was perfect. Darren and his family are away at the moment in Seaton. They are having a great time but I think the weather had broken and it is thundering and lightning now. I was supposed to be looking after Satch. Sadly he had to be put to sleep on Monday. He was terribly thin and weak. His back legs were giving away on him and he looked so sad. He could only walk a few steps and often collapsed. it was heartbreaking to lose him. I am sure he is with you now. I know how happy you will be to see him. You always thought of him as your dog and you loved him dearly.
I have not seen most of my family for over a year now. I have been abandoned by them as they can't except how unhappy I am without you. They just think I should let go and forget. This is unthinkable and totally unacceptable to me. You always have and always be the love of my life. They are so up themselves and incredibly stupid and heartless. I am better of without them.
Di is ok, getting slower and does not want to go for walk in this intense heat. We are having a heatwave at the moment and the temperatures are soaring to 38-39 degrees. It is too hot and airless and very uncomfortable to sleep in. Di loves her toys and we play every night, she loves a cuddle and a play during the evening and is so very well behaved and affectionate. You trained her superbly, a true dog whisperer. I don't know what I would do without her.
I hope all is well with you. I look forward to seeing your butterfly every day. We sit and chat for hours. Yesterday you were very excited and sat really close to me on the chair, You even brushed my head. I was delighted. I hope to see you in a moment as I am going back out to see if you are there today. It is no nice to know that you are still here and there is another life awaiting for us all. I hope to be re-united with you again soon, i can't wait to be in your arms again.
Until we met again. please always remember that I always have and always will love you forever and always, you are the love of my life, my husband, best friend, soul mate and lover. And boy what a husband and lover you were.
All my love forever and always,
Maggie XxX