Hi Gerry, I love and miss you so very much. It is the 30th September 2020. It is raining and very autumn feeling. I am so unhappy and lonely without you. I wish with all my heart, body and soul that you were still here with me. I don't know how much longer I can stand this life without you.
Life is grim on earth at the moment. Covid is raging around the world at the rate of knots. The death toll has exceeded 1 million people now. Restriction are being re-introduced, it is going to be a hard, lonely and miserable winter. Christmas is all but cancelled.
Darren is struggling financially as he has no way of teaching or gigging during the rest of this year and quite possibly most of next year. Jamie is back to work at BIMM but is very fearful as its the start of a new intake and students have arrived from all over the world. This has put him in a very dangerous position and is putting his family at grave risk.
All in all it is a very frightening time for everyone. We all wish that you were still here to help guide us and keep our spirits up, with your wonderful fun personality.
Di has been poorly and been to the vets twice recently. She is picking up now though.
I keep loosing and breaking things at the moment. I fear I am going mad being so isolated and lonely. I need you so badly and cannot stop thinking about you . Not that I ever will as you were and always will be the love of my life.
I am fed up with all the things I have put aside for the charity shops cluttering up the office. I don's know when I will be able to get rid of things as the charity shops are overflowing with items and are not taking anything else in. Even when they do they are not taking the items of kids beddings and curtains I have put aside or the kids toys.
I wish you were here to spent time with. We would be having so much fun with all the free time and privacy we are forced into now.
Jamie has started coming to teach on a Tuesday evening and Darren is still coming of Friday's to help me . He is currently videoing your cine films to put onto a DVD for me to watch. It is so wonderful to look back on our fabulous family life. You look so handsome and sexy, it breaks my heart seeing how happy we all were and how wonderful you were. I wish we could all go back to those wonderful happy days.
Austyn and violet are coming for a sleep over on Saturday. that will keep me busy and be a lot of fun.
I hope all is well with you and that you are happy, loved and free to do whatever your heart desires. I hope you have been restored to full health and vitally. I do see you in my dreams some nights. I have not seen your butterfly for a couple of moths now, that is freeking me out. I hope you are coming home still, and that you are watching over us and guiding us. We all love to feel your presence and to know that you are still around.
Until we meet again please always remember that I always have an always will love you forever and always.
All my love for ever and always.
Maggie XxX