Hi Gerry, I love and miss you so very much.
It is the 3rd June and Darren's 44th birthday today. All the family had a meal together in the garden of the restaurant that used to be TGI Fridays at Shaw ridge, this afternoon. It's the first time we have all been able to get together for 15 months, due to covid. It was fabulous to see everyone. The kids all had a great time together and Darren and Jamie have not been together for so long it was amazing to see them together.
I am remembering the day he was born and how happy we were. I wish we could put the clock back and relive our lives together again. Missing out the horrible bits, and making sure that you did not get that heinous cancer and heart disease. So that you were still here, fit healthy happy and well.
We gave Darren the money to buy himself another monitor for his gigs. We also bought him the Rock and Roll rose for his garden. I think he is having friends around tonight for a games night and a fair few beers.
The weather is better and getting warm and sunny for a change. The garden is looking fabulous, but not as good as when you were looking after it. Nothing will ever be as good as when you were here. I have put up a butterfly house for you in the garden on the fence by the house and your new stone b-b-q. There is a dish of sugar water in it for refreshment. I do hope your butterfly comes again soon and lives in the house. I love sitting for hours talking to it.
The covid situation is a bit better now. We are allowed to meet our friends and families again. It is preferable to meet outside whenever possible to avoid any covid spread.
Di is ok but struggling still. The smell is coming back stronger every day now. I think she might still have some infection or maybe its just because she is getting old. She is not drinking nearly enough especially now that it is getting very warm. She is eating well though, and enjoying playing with her toys with me. She loves being in the garden. I can only take her on very short walks around by the paper shop, and that is only about twice a week. Her legs are very bad and she limps a lot. She is very unsteady and often falls over now. I am trying to make her life as happy as possible. She still loves her packet of crisps each night and she demands a lot more treats each night now.
I am missing you like hell at the moment. I am so lost without you. I will never bee able to recover from your loss. You should be here now, having the most fabulous time ever. With so much free time, money, privacy and opportunities to have fun, its wicked that you are not here to enjoy yourself. I feel so bad for you and cannot bring myself to enjoy life without you. I long for you all the time. You live in my head and my heart, and I miss you with every breath in my body and every beat of my heart.
I hope you are happy and well and having a fabulous new life in the most beautiful world imaginable. I hope it is everything that you wish for and a much better world that this one.
Please keep coming to see me in my dreams. I love to be with you again. To see your face, hear you voice , see you smile, laugh and hold you tight. I love to kiss you, and make love to you. Thank you for coming to see me and look after me. I CAN'T WAIT TO BE RE-UNITED WITH YOU SO THAT WE CAN BE LOVERS FOREVER AND EVER.
Until we meet again please always remember that I always have and always will, love you forever and always.
All my love forever and always,
Maggie XxX