Hi Gerry,
I love and miss you so very much. It hurts so much that you are gone.
I am struggling at the moment with Di. She must have injured herself on Saturday night . I thought I heard her come upstairs as usual to sleep at the top of the stairs. I could hear her on the stairs, and thought I heard her flop down as usual. Unfortunately, when I go t up in the morning she was at the bottom of the stairs. I should have got out of bed and checked on her, but I was so tired sadly I did not. I always check, and she is always at the top of the stairs so I decided to leave it for once. She was ok at first during the day. Then when I went to take her out at 10pm for her last wee for the night she collapsed in the hallway, and could not get up again. She was quite distressed and I ended up dragging her onto the rug which I had put down for her to make walking easier. We then had to spend the night on the kitchen floor. I did not know what to do. I rang Darren as soon as it was respectable and Kelly came at 9am . She had just had a Covid test done in Wroughton, so was in the area anyway,
We checked Di over and Kelly said that as her back legs were just hanging and were even crossed she would never walk again. We did not know what to do but Kelly suggested that I rang the vet. Kelly thought it would be kindest to have Di put to sleep while she was not suffering. We felt that the end of her mobility and quality of life was probably over.
The vet rang back later that day to talk to me. She said that if I really needed to go I could be seen at 4.20 and have Di put to sleep. I said I was not ready for that AND NEITHER WAS DI, SO i ARRANGED TO GO THE NEXT MORNING AT 10.40AM. I was not really sure that this was the right thing to do. Jamie came over that evening to teach a student. He said that if he did not know any better he though Di looked the same as usual. We tried to get her out for a wee using the method the vet suggested. We got two bath towels and put them under Di and lifted her off the ground to try and coax her to stand up. This was very difficult as she is so heavy. We got her outside but she could not stand and did not attempt to go to the toilet. Jamie spend a lot of time playing with her and she was eating snack with a passion. Neither of us felt that she was ready to go as she seemed so happy. the next morning I rang the vet and cancelled the appointment.
I am so very glad I did. I have just spent the last 4 night sleeping downstairs with her. Since Monday I have slept in your arm chair. She has eaten well and drank well. She did not sleep well until Tuesday night. In the morning I was worried that she had very shallow breathing. I gave her some Rieki healing for a short while while she was asleep. I also asked you to help her. Whilst I was upstairs stripping the bed to wash Di had got up and walked into the hall. She then collapsed again. She stayed there all day. Thank you so very much for hearing my plea and helping her. I know you worshiped the ground she walked on and she you. I rang Steph, to see if she could help me get her back into the lounge for the evening. But i did not need her in the end,because I manged to wheelbarrow her into the lounge after a packet of crisps. As you know she will do anything for a packet of crisps.
She slept really well last night. Then while I was outside reading I heard her again and she had got up and walked through the kitchen then launched herself out of the door over the step. This made her collapse again as her legs gave way . She had gone out to do a wee and a poo. Bless her she is so very wonderful. She did not want to get up with my assistance, so as it is a nice day i left her there. I then went upstairs again, to remake the bad and when I came down she had managed to get herself back in the lounge. It is a bloody miracle.
I am so glad she is making a good recovery. Thank you so much for all your help and assistance in this. I know how much you love her and i guess you will be delighted to be re-united again. But I am so very grateful that you have helped her recover so that we can be together a bit longer. I am dreading it when she has to go.
I do not have much more news at the moment. I have managed to buy a carpet shampooer which had come in very handy to clean up Di's accident during this sad time. i was due to start back in the Rock Choir tonight. It's the first live session in 18 months due to Covid. I will have to miss it as I want to give Di the best fighting chance. So i feel i need to be at home with her for that. I have also cancelled the first Reiki session this Saturday.
I hope all is well with you, and thank you so very much for still being here more me. I am truly blessed to have married such a wonder man. I treasure your love forever and always.
Until we meet again, please always remember that I always have and always will love you forever and always. I can't wait to be i your loving arms again, and see you smiling face and laughing eye. I love you.
All my love forever and always,
Maggie XxX