Happy Christmas My Darling Gerry, I love and miss you so very much. Its not Christmas here without you. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas in heaven with your family and mine along with Di, Patch Tuppy and Satch. I hope you had a lot of fun, gifts, parties, gigs and fantastic sex. I went to John's by taxi to spend the afternoon with Jamie and his family, have dinner and lots and lots of presents. Jamie spoilt me with so many goodies and treats. I had a hamper with lots of Dove toiletries, wine and lots of goodies and treats to eat. Then Darren came with Austyn and Violet and he gave me a present's from him and Jamie. It was a new smart mobile phone, which i needed. I then went to Darren's for another Christmas dinner, and got spoilt again with lots of gifts and treats, I had a mobile phone cover, socks, baileys, a coffee set and scarf and a hot stone massage voucher along with lots of other treats. I stayed overnight and Darren brought me home on Boxing day afternoon. I then spend the rest of the day watching tv and thinking of you. I bought for a=you a lovely metal picture of you sitting playing your drums. It has colour changing lights around it. I do hope you like it. I also bought you a heartfelt card, 14 red rose and 14 coloured roses. I sent you a silver star balloon to heaven for you t read my loving heartfelt message to you. I bought two golden retriever tribute to hang on the memory tree and the Christmas tree. I also bough a small slate eith her picture and a message of her head saying Forever in our hearts, with her name and dates of her life. You bought me a lovely white winter jumper and a hoodie which is worn indoors over your clothes to keep warm. It is white with a hood and it comes down to my calf's, its super warm. Thank you so very much. I also got out one of the many t cards you gave me Yesterday we all went to the Windmill for our family get together and had a meal and lots of drinks and shots, Darren and Jamie and families exchanged Christmas present and we all had a fantastic time. I missed you so very much and hope that you were there with us. I don't want you to miss a thing. Today Austyn and Violet are coming for a sleep over and Darren, Kelly, Jamie and Lindsay are having a bongo bingo night out together. Its the first night out they have all had togehter since having their families. John is going to babysit at Jamie's. I hope all is well with you and that you are having a great Christmas. I wish you a Happy New Year. I hope to get the car fixed soon. Please can help make sure it is not a major costly repair. Until we meet again, please always remember that I always have, and always will love you forever and always. Please come and visit me in dreams so that we can make mad passionate love again. I can't wait to be in your loving arms again. All my love forever and always, Forever yours, Maggie XxX c \i love

Happy 73rd Birthday my Darling Gerry. Hope you have a great party in Heaven and that Di is by your side.All my love forever and always. Maggie XxX

Hi Gerry, I love and miss you so very much. Its 10 years ago today that you passed away and it feel as raw as if it were today. i cant stop thinking of you and wishing you were still here. I have spent the day thinking of you and the horrible heinous death you endured. You were so very brave and strong and fought the heinous cancer with such hope, strength and bravery. You did not deserve to loose the fight. Such a strong, loving, dedicated, caring, loyal and talented, artistic, creative, wise and totally gorgeous man that you always were. I struggle to comprehend why that should have happened to such a lovely person like you. I put a notice in the Evening Advertiser with a loving message to you. I bought a rose bush in your honour called Blue for You. It should be a lovely blue rose. I bought you 15 red roses, sent you balloons and released butterflies in your honour, to signify freedom for you. I held a family memorial bbq today to honour and remember you. Darren, Kelly, Austyn, Violet, Jamie, Lindsay, Isabelle, Sienna, Genevieve, John (Lindsay's dad) Barry and Sue also came. We started around 3pm and send up our balloons to you 6 in total at 3.50pm the time of your passing. We released the butterflies, which signifies the release of the spirit. We ate burgers, hot dogs, chicken legs and spare ribs, We also had cheese cake, chocolate gateau and toasted marsh mellows between two chocolate biscuits. Darren and Jamie both brought their whisky smokers and we all raised a whisky toast to you. Then the boys played Hotel California to you. I hope you were able to join us and see all your family again. You made sure the weather was good today for the occasion. I saw your Red Admiral butterfly twice this week. I am so very proud and grateful that you have come back home to see me again. You make my heart swell with love and joy when i see you. I thought i might see you today but alas it did not. I hope you are happy, free and well happily playing with our beautiful dog Di and Patch. Last night i drove to Cirencester to sing at the Candle of Hope ceremony. Its a charity event for raising money for cancer research and is held to remember and honour those we have lost to cancer. I went to honour and remember you. I sang with the Rock choir. We sang Somewhere only we now, Angels, Bridge over troubled waters and A thousand years. It was truly emotional and i crumbled and cried at the beginning. I had a job to hold myself together as I was thinking of you the whole time. I don't have much more news at the moment, but I will write again soon. Until we meet again please always remember that I always have and always will, love you forever and always. I cant wait to be in your loving arms again. All my love, forever and always. Maggie XxX