Hi Gerry, I am thinking of you and missing you so much. I feel like I am going mad with grief and longing for you. I am struggling to fill my days, even though I have still not managed to do all the decanting of my clutter. A job which I have always dreaded. I need you to help me do this. I need you so much and wish with all my heart that you were here beside me .
Yesterday I went to The Cotswold Wildlife Park with Darren and his family. We had a lovely day and took Di with us. She enjoyed the day out as much as I did. It must be at least 30 years since we went there together with the boys. I did not recognise much as i guess it has changed a lot. Next week I am going to Bournemouth with the boys and their families for a few days. Hopefully the weather will be good to us and we all have a good time. I shall be thinking of and reliving our last holiday there with all the family. We had such a good time there. You even went for a swim in the sea even though it was freezing cold water.We had a walk together along the beach front. You played in the sand with Austyn and Isabelle, built them sandcastles, and boats in the sand. We all had a fish and chip dinner. Staying in the Best Western Hotel which was lovely, swimming in the hotel pool with the grandchildren and going in the jacussi. We had gone to celebrate our 40th Wedding Anniversary. What happy wonderful days.
I have seen your butterfly a couple of times recently. It does not come everyday as it has in previous years. I am worried that you do not want to come home and visit me any more. I do hope that is not the case as it brings me so much joy and comfort to know you still want to be around me. I hope I have not done anything to upset you.
Life is so boring, unfulfilling and lonely without you. I miss your smiling face, your strong arms around me and all the love and happy times we shared.
It's been a hot summer this year and you would have loved it. I do not sunbathe in the garden any more or do lots of this things we did together as it is not the same without you. We would be having so much fun together now, with free time to do whatever our hearts desired, but in stead there is sadness, loneliness and heartbreak
I truly hope that you are happily settled into your new life and that the afterlife is good. I hope that you are flying free and can do whatever you want and go wherever you desire. I hope that you have lots of friends, family, musicians, artists and lovers. I hope you are truly happy.
I hope to be with you again soon if you will have me back again.
Remember that I have and always will love you. Until we meet again, be happy my Darling.
All my love forever and always. Maggie XxX