Hi Gerry, I am missing you so very much. It is so hard to get up and face another day without you. My heart, body and soul ache for you. I want to sit cuddled up to you by the fire sipping whisky, before going to bed and making mad passionate love. Oh how I wish I could put the clock back and make sure that we did more to destroy your cancer. You should be here instead of me. You were such a wonderful person, loved and needed by everyone. You are so desperately missed by us all, but most especially me.
It is cold dark and very wintry here now. The night are so very long and lonely.The hoover broke last weekend, and I had to replace it. I did not know what to do as you always took care of everything and always researched and new what to buy. I followed your advice and went to Curry's to try out a few models. The model we bought together is no longer made, but it did last 10 years. I ended up getting another dyson the animal 2+. Di's dog hairs are abundant and I needed one which would cope with them.
Christmas will soon be upon us again. On Saturday I am going with our sons and 5 grandchildren to see Santa at Whithall garden centre. It should be a good day out. the kids are very excited. Then Austyn and Violet are having a sleep over here. On Sunday it is the Light up a light service at the Prospect. The family and I go every year to remember you and to light a candle for you. We also have a message put in the message book and have a card put on the christmas tree with a message to you.
I have seen you in my dreams a few times recently. The last dream I found you in the garage. You had tidied it up and it was immaculate. Your bench was clean and empty. There was so much space in there. If you could see it how it really is you would have a fit. It is chock a block with logs and lost relatives memorabilia. It is awful, but maybe you are telling me to get and clean it up. I hope to see you again soon in my dreams. I know I did not say it often enough, but you were my dream man. I love you so much and have so much to talk to you about. Sometimes I think I will go stark raving mad without you.
I hope you are doing well and you have lots of friend, family, lovers, drummers, musicians, artist and fellow companions. to enjoy your new life with. I hope you are free to go anywhere and do anything your heart desires. I hope you can fly up to the stars and moon and back with the birds and butterflies. I hope you can swim in the Indian ocean and the Caribbean sea with the playful dolphins, turtles colourful fish among the coulouful corals. I do hope you can make beautiful music and play your drums. Paint pictures and be creative. I hope you are happy and fulfilled.
Until we meet again always remember I love you and always will. Love forever and always, Maggie XxX